Νιώσε με σώσε με...

αυτοί οι στίχοι στριφογυριζουν στο μυαλό μου και στα χείλη..
τόσο μόνη τόσο πολύ...
μόνοι μας,  εκτος απο εκεινες τισ στιγμές που νιώθουμε οτι ισως και  καπου ανηκουμε..
αυτό μάλλον μου έμαθε αυτός ο χρόνος "το χωρίς" σε ολες του τις διαστάσεις του..
σκληρό πολύ,  αλλά δεν μετανιώνω ούτε για μια στιγμή...

 

άγριες οι σχέσεις των ανθρώπων..
μια στιγμη αρκει για να αλλαξουν όλα..
τοσο περιπλοκες τοσο μπερδεμενες τοσο...
η αγαπη δεν αρκει και τι ειναι αγαπη..
να κοιτας τον αλλόν μέσα στα μάτια..
να χαμογελας με τη σκέψη του..
να ανακουφιζεσαι με το αγγιγμα του...
να μυριζεις το άρωμα του...
μα παν'απ'όλα  να λες σε αγαπαω γιατι εισαι αυτος και οχι καποιος άλλος..
να τον θες να ειναι εκει σε όλα..
αλλιως νοημα δεν εχει..
δεν γινεται να αγαπας καποιον όταν του λες δε σε θελω στη ζωη μου..
αυτό δεν ειναι αγαπη είναι κατι αλλο δεν ξερω πως το λενε παντως αγαπη δεν ειναι..
ανακουφιστικό να γραφεις η Μανωλια μου το εμαθε..
που με αγαπαει ότι και να γινει..
αυτα για τωρα..

scattered thoughts..

the positive influence of my SUN

I stopped watching TV

I organized my self

I try to follow the motto which says never cancel something for tomorrow which you can do now

I eat less

I exercise myself (walking, walking, walking...)

I try to save money

I do not really care about my appearance

I have time to think and to take care myself 

I  stop using plastic bags i put all my shopping in my bagpack

I try to use the best side of myself

i miss the important people of my life. it is especially happened when i live something special for example a trip, a joke, a good lunch, a wonderful view, a low price in a big brand (my lovely sister this is for you) etc then i would like to share this with my soul-mates .. so one good solution would be that if there was a magic bottom which you could press and have the person which you miss most in front of view...this thought is always in my mind..

i realized that the atmosphere of the Athens maybe miss me a little....strange because a few years ago i strongly refused to imagine my life in this city..

 

#@$%@#%#^%

it is my first time which i make two updates in the same day..
a day which started good with positive thought and end up to be one of the most difficult nights hear in my SUN (Sunderland)
i know i am a person who i cry so easy as i smile..
but in last months in the majority of times i had in my face a smile...
and a few times i cried but i cried too much...
these times were related with my relatioship..
i know that it is too difficult to be in touch with a personality completely different from yours...
i know that but i do not know if the power of the love can solve any proble or can create worst situations..
vayia said me that it is better to finish something before hating your partener..
sometimes it is right..and maybe it was the reason which made me the first time to break down..
but a relatioship maybe need to pass a lot of difficult situations in order to have a stronge base in order to stand in the future..

i do not really know...
i am really complicated..
i must take a brave desicion...but i can not..

good night..

my moving..

Today i moved i came in Scotia Quay nice place
my chinese friends help me enough they are very nice person and good company
chinese people i think live in a rose cloud and to be honest i like that because sometimes they behave like children..and i love children..
the only thing which miss me for my previous house is my wonderful view
but i have said i hate to create relations with the things i do not like..i prefer more meaningful things..

i start to decorate my room...
i want to seize every day..
i feel that this place is so close to me..
maybe in a previous life i were chinese and i lived in UK...who knows??

good night..

see you soon..

sunderland..

I am going to write in English..
I know that I am not so good in this..
But the most important is the try..

So, I am here in this small town with a lot of chineze people and a wonderful river only tree weeks...and i feel go good...everything is so new but in the same time so familiar with me...i don't feel alone, i don't feel foreign, i feel my self...i feel free.. i had a long time to have this sense it is so unique..

and today i realize that i am alone on the one hand is good it makes me feel strong
but on the other hand if you can do everything alone why you invest time and feeling in people
because you maybe want someone to rely on him...you want someone to depend on him..you want someone stronger than you...

I hope one day to have  in my life someone who will be essential for me...

goodnight from the cold Sunderland....

this is my view from my window, i love this:-)))))

Έρωτας..

Ερωτεύεσαι έναν άνθρωπο απλά και μόνο που τον βλέπεις εκείνα τα πρώτα λεπτά...
 η αύρα του σου αρκεί για φτιάξεις το παραμυθάκι στο κεφάλι σου..
θες όσο τίποτα άλλο να τον έχεις..
πιστεύεις ότι το παραμυθάκι θα πάρει σάρκα και οστά..
και όταν γίνεται τελικά, στην αρχή ζεις όπως το είχες φανταστεί..
ή τουλάχιστον σου φαίνεται ότι ζεις έτσι..
μετά αρχίζεις σιγά σιγά και γίνεσαι αυτός που ήσουν πριν..
άλλος άνθρωπο σε κάνει ο έρωτας
σε βάζει σε μία γυάλα και δεν βλέπεις τίποτα άλλο μόνο αυτόν..
και μετά μένει η μυρωδιά...
μένει η αγκαλιά..
μένει το φιλί..
μένει το βλέμμα...
μένεις εσύ και αυτός..
και μετά τίποτα...

''για σενα''